So today's question by @motivationMY is:
If you could switch jobs for a day, what would you do?
Although my original answer, is that I would like to be a socialite and a model, I've had some time to think about it. I think I would like to be a socialite more than a model. I wanted to be a model because I love how they always look so pretty, glamorous and elegant. And I really do adore Yan Kay Kay (a Singaporean model), but some models, are really so bimbo-tic! I really don't wanna be like them.
I would like to be someone (most probably a socialite!) who can make a difference. I really love the idea of speaking my mind, of telling the truth, and of changing our social views. I'm not saying that our society is bad, but I really think that sometimes, we, as youths, should really speak our mind. And most of the times, we are not given the proper chance to. Which is why, I really admire the creator behind MotivationMY. I really applaud his bravery to do what he's doing, and I honestly thank him for giving people like me, to speak our minds. I believe that he is a real socialite and is doing an amazing job at it.
When I tweeted my answer to MotivationMY, I tagged everyone who was tagged in the tweet with me, and I sort of gave the idea that I could only dream about being a socialite or a model or both. And then, a TV host, named Fabian Narcis, replied my tweet and said "Dreams do come true.. I'm living proof :)". And it got me to thinking, what if I did that too? I mean, pursue my dreams of being on TV (although technically, I did spend an entire season, appearing on Astro Battleground 2007), and basically indulging my fantasies of being pretty and looked up to by everyone? I admit, I'm not the least slim (in fact, I consider myself relatively tubby!), and I don't really like to dress up! But if I did like to dress up, and was really skinny, what's stopping me from being on TV? For me, it's just one thing: REJECTION!
I have a tendency to give up everything once I'm rejected. I tend to be a very negative person. People see me cheery and chirpy all the time, and I think that I can be cheery and chirpy! But when it comes to being rejected, I'll feel like my whole world will come tumbling down. I think that's quite a big deal to me. I know that being rejected is sometimes part of the deal, and maybe that's why I'm afraid of pursuing it? Maybe that's why I never became a full-time dancer, because I know that it's normal for dancers to be rejected. I know that it's important to keep an open mind, etc, and I've heard all the motivational talks, but somehow, I just curl up into my little shell once I've been rejected. To me, losing a competition does not equal to being rejected. That just means I'm not good enough. And a lot of people have told me that I should keep on improving myself to be better. I agree.
I am currently working on a small project which has no impact on my job or career whatsoever. The small project, however, does involve my life. The small project, is for me to change my entire outward look. I know it's not easy, and it sure is taking up a lot of cash, but it's for my own confidence. I've always never felt confident about myself for some reason. But from now on, it's going to change. I'm going on a small diet, whereby I control my food intake, and try to exercise more. Then I am slowly but surely using a teeny bit of makeup, and am planning to change my wardrobe. These changes will not happen all at one go, as it is a fairly expensive ordeal, but my confidence will grow. And who knows? Maybe one day, MY dream will come true? :)
Love, Sheryl1986 <3
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